Wednesday, June 24, 2009

See You in the Morning

I have been enjoying my new baby Brody so much lately - especially in the morning. He is so happy at this time. I love listening to him on the monitor as he is waking up and he is making his sweet little baby sounds. The other day he was doing this and I absolutely couldn't wait to go to his room, open his door and peek over his crib to see his sweet face. I crawled out of bed and made my way across the house to where he sleeps. I walked across his room and anticipated his reaction to my presence. When he saw my face, his little eyes twinkled and he started giggling at me. I could tell that he too was excited to see me. It had only been about 4 hours since we had last been together but we both could not wait to be in each other's company again.

The picture above is one that I absolutely love. I have one hanging in my room close to my bed. My mother gave it to me shortly after I lost DeLanee and so when I look at it, I think of her. As I was going to bed the other night I was staring at that picture and thinking about how excited Brody was to see me that morning. His reaction really did make my day. Then I remembered a saying I had seen on a headstone in the cemetary one day as I was visiting DeLanee's grave. It said "See you in the morning". I really liked it. As latter-day saints we have been taught that those who are worthy will rise on the morning of the first resurrection and be given "thrones, kindoms, principalites and powers" (D&C 132.19). I couldn't help but imagine the unspeakable joy that will be in DeLanee's and I's countenance as we embrace one another and are once again in each other's presence on this morning. I pray each day that I can live worthily to come forth and be able to see her "in the morning". I can't wait to see the twinkle in her eye and yes. . .I will giggle.


The Millirons said...

My heart is so full right now and you brought tears to my eyes. Thank you, thank you, thank you for that box. I can't believe I am actually meeting you. The box you made is gorgeous and it holds so many special memories for my Husband and I. I have a hard time opening it sometimes, but I love looking at it. You did an amazing job. I wish I could do something to repay you. Your gift will hold a special place in my heart forever.

So email me and tell me more about you. How many children do you have ? How did your sweet one pass away ? I am so sorry for your loss. I love the picture on your Blog header though. So precious.

Kami Milliron

Chef Tess said...

My friend Heather sent me to your blog. I hear you are trying to go non-profit and having a benefit in October. I'm totally willing donate one of my personal coaching sessions. Please contact me ( I loved reading your post. I have two miracle babies that have lived... now 10 and 6. Just reminded me today how blessed I am to have them here. Most excited for you to see your daughter too. Keep the Faith.

RAYALITE said...

Beautiful Post Beck! I'm so touched~

melinda said...

Wow. I was just able to read the story of DeLanee. What a beautiful tribute to her. I am touched and full of emotion. You are truly amazing and your faith is inspiring. I cannot imagine the feelings you have had and continue to have--I won't pretend I do. But, I am so impressed with your outlook, courage, and attitude. Your daughter was of course too perfect for this world, and just as you know, I too, know you will hold her again someday.
Hugs to you.

Eldredge Family said...


I want to thank you over and over again for your posts. I was having a rough afternoon yesterday. I just start feeling so very nervous anxious like I can't breath. I got to a point were I felt like Mom and sisters were tired of hearing the same tune being sung. So I just started praying and I started to remember most of your posts and words. I was able to breath and get through the hard moments. It has been 5 months and I am still so sad and heartbroken. I know you can't rush grief, but does this ever get better? Is my life always going to be so hard to get through each day. I feel like it is a battle each day and that Satan is ready to pounce on me at second and take me out. I have never had to fight harder than I am right know. I keep plugging right along and working hard. I just miss my baby boy so much and it hurts. I just wanted to thank you for everything and all of your words. I know this has to get better because I have seen you and family being happy! I look forward to that part of grief so much! Thank you for being an example to me.
Your friend,
Crystal Elderedge